Bitter? Me? Never.

I don’t even know why I’m even doing this. I currently am not a fan of boys right now. Life is so much more pleasantly calm without them. I don’t need to be another casualty in some guy’s path of self-discovery or become roadkill in his effort to fill some internal emptiness that he can’t fill on his own.

So why the fuck am I doing this? Because I’m sick of doing things the hard way by working through my own shit before putting it upon anyone else. Right now, it’s all about being selfish and not giving a fuck about anyone else. It’s whatever is going to make me feel good or better about myself at this very moment and that’s pretty much it. I watch boys do it all the time. And now, I’m going to become the type of person I hate. Fuck the high road; I’m just going to bulldoze my way through the low road of self-loathing. It’s called self-preservation for those of us who can’t forgive ourselves for the mistakes we’ve made.

Hell, there are no rules here– we’re trying to accomplish something.
-Thomas A. Edison

— Ballyhoo Backcaster